kwkf kbUUqr–kwkf kYnyzf

jnmyjf isMG jOhl

1990 dI iek srd svyr mYN qy jsovfl iekwØTy sI. mohn isMG mylf Kqm ho cuwkf sI qy jsovfl iblkul vyhlf sI. myly df lYx dyx vI muwk cuwkf sI qy myly ivc ivwqI lfB hfnI df mslf vI inpt cuwkf sI. agly myly ivc kfÌI smF ipaf sI pr jsovfl ƒ huxy iPkr lwg hoieaf sI. slfh bxI ik myly leI Dn qy DMn–DMn joVn vfsqy ivdyÈF df cwkr lgfieaf jfvy. sbwbI hI trFto qoN ivÈv pMjfbI kfnPrMs df swdf pwqr af igaf. jsovfl ny pRDfngI krnI sI qy mYN numfieÈ lgf ik iek BfÈn dyxf sI.

imwQI qrIk ƒ asIN kYnyzf qy amrIkf dy vIËy lY ley. sfƒ iksy ny kuJ Kfs nhIN puwiCaf. julfeI dy afKrI hPqy asIN jf phuMcy trFto. rsqy ivc kOx kOx imilaf qy sPr ikvyN bIiqaf ieh gwlHF ikqy Pyr krFgf pr hfl dI GVI mslf hor hY. sfzy vrgy kuJ hor lyKk–numf bMdy vI pMjfb qoN phuMcy hoey sn. kfnPrMs dy idn suKIN sFdI lMG gey. hux dOr ÈurU hoieaf imlx iglx df. hr roË ikqy nf ikqy Kfxy leI swdf huMdf sI. iek idn iksy hotl ivc gIq sMgIq df pRogrfm sI. do gfiekF ny iek gIq suxfieaf, jo ivdyÈF ivc vsdy lokF dy duwKF dI qrjmfnI krdf sI, Kfs kr jo hfly pwØky nhIN sn. pRogrfm qoN bfad pqf lwgf ik, ieh donoN, iksy gfiek ny iewØQy CwØzy sn y. ieh Èfied myrI iksy kbUqr nfl pihlI imlxI sI. gwl geI afeI ho geI qy mYN vI Buwl Bulf igaf sI jykr ajkwlH kbUqrbfËI df ieh rOlf nf pYNdf.

jdoN bMdy ƒ BuwK lwgdI hY qF Auh rotI leI iksy vI qrHF dy sfDn dI vrqoN kr skdf hY. isrP rotI hI BuwK nhIN huMdI, ieh srIrk, mfnisk qy smfijk vI ho skdI hY. Èfied ieho kfrx hY ik sfrI dunIaF ivc abfdI dy 90 pRqIÈq lok dujIaF QfvF qoN af ky vsy huMdy hn. ajkwl afriQkqf dy kwsvyN skMËy ny ieh Byz cfl mwDm qy aOKI kr idwqI hY. hux vIËy lYxy afsfn nhIN rih gey jF kih lvo ik vIËy lYx leI aigafnqf vI vD geI hY. lok pYsy Krc ky hr kMm sOKy qrIky nfl krnf cfhuMdy hn. iehI kfrn hY ik kuJ ieho ijhy lok pYdf ho gey, jo ivdyÈ jfx dy cfhvfnF ƒ iek gfhk smJx lwg pey qy ipCly sflF ivc Èfied hËfrF lokF ny ies pYsy nfl afpxy cMm rMgy hox. pr ies ivc Auhnf df vI kI ksUr? jykr phfVF qoN pfxI afvygf qF ndIaF qF bnxgIaF hI. hwQF ivc lwKF cuwkI iPrdy lokF ƒ jfieË, njfieË sB qrHF dy dukfndfr tkrngy hI. kdy iKzfrI dy rUp ivc, kdy nftkkfr dy rUp ivc, kdy rfgIaF dy rUp ivc qy kdy gfiekF dy rUp ivc.

1990 qoN bfad mYN Pyr keI vfr igaf. kmljIq nIloN, surjIq pfqr, afqmjIq vrgy sfihqkfrF nfl vI igaf. pr 1996 qoN bfad iek zr ijhf lwgx lwg ipaf qy hr vfr jdoN vI iksy kfnPrMs qy jF numfieÈ leI igaf, kwlf hI igaf. ijwØQy hmfm ivc sB nMgy hox AuwØQy kwpVy pfey hoey vI idKxoN hwt jFdy hn. qury iPrdy keI qrHF dy lok imldy hn. hYrfn hoiedf ik keI bVy hI snmfinq qy amIr pMjfbI jo ivdyÈF ‘c vsdy hn iksy idn iewdF hI iewØQoN juwqI Jolf cuwk ik qury sn. eyarport dy bfhrI Puwt pfQ qy sON ik rfqF kwtx vfly awj hvfeI jhfËF dy mflk hn. mYN hmyÈf socdf irhF ik iehI lok pMjfb ‘c ikAuN nhIN kfmXfb huMdy? ieh pMjfb ieMnHIN hwz BMnvIN imhnq ikAuN nhIN krdy? smF pfky pqf cwilaf ik pMjfbI qF Jony dI pnIrI vFg puwt ik dUjI jgHf lfAux AuwØqy hI cflU huMdy hn. bs iehI kMm krdy rhy hn eyjMt. pnIrI puwt ik lfAux dy pYsy jwt BeIaF ƒ dyNdy hn, qy, Jonf qy Jony dy KyqF ƒ vyc ik muMzy dI pnIrI knyzf ‘c lfAux leI jwt eyjMt ƒ pYsy dyNdy hn. ijvyN BeIey Kyq dy awD ‘c jfky pnIrI ivrlI lf dyNdy hn, bs iesy qrHF ieh eyjMt vI kuJ QfvF qy byeImfnI kr jFdy hn qy BeIaF vFg hI JUT bol dyNdy hn, ‘‘pUrf lwg igaf srdfr jI’’ qy pYsy lYky iqwqr ho jFdy hn, ibnF kbUqr Auzfey hI.